Today I have sat and thought about the last year...accomplishments, changes, heartache, tears and smiles. I have come to realize that this life is good and it is what God wants me to have. As the start of a new year comes I am going to try to be a better, happier person. Not just on the outside but inside too.
I have learned today that one of my friends who has been fighting cancer for about 6 years is going on to hospice care. That has been a smack in the face for me. He and his wife have put up a strong fight. And have done it with dignity and I am so impressed by them. It has brought me to the realization that life is short...I know I have heard it so many times.....but it sometimes takes a smack in the face to open my eyes...sort of hard headed.
I have set goals for myself...not resolutions. I am going to read this Bible in 2011, our pastor is challenging the church and I think I will follow suit. Not only with that bring me closer to God but will give me much needed time to myself. I am going to wake up each morning and count my blessings.
This week I have thought about how you hear that God gives you no more than you can handle and I thought wow he is really testing me. I know that God trusts me and believes in me. It is high time I believe in myself.
Our girls are growing up so fast. There have been so many changes with them I just don't know what to do. Some days I am sad about that. Some days I think maybe we should have another child. Some days I wonder why God gave me the two I have. I feel blessed. At this point and time we (Tyler and I) realize that we are 1 parent to 1 kid and that is the only way we can handle it. We don't want to be out numbered :)